MEMORIES OF THE PAST

Have you ever tried living in the shadow of your past -- past love?

Once upon a time, there was a girl that at the age where her mind and emotions were full-grown, she fell in love with this boy, whom she never thought would love her back. Everything about them was almost perfect. But life doesn't go their way -- fate separates them apart. The thing happened -- it's unbearable.

It seems like only yesterday when there was "him and her". It’s really hard to lose someone whom you love so much. But the harder part is when you know that it’s time to move on but you just can’t control your heart. You try to be strong – so strong, do everything, hang around and try to find some things to do just to keep your mind off missing that person – still you end up crying and the pain lingers in your heart.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. I have realized that no matter how hard I’ve tried and no matter how much I’ve prayed for it…“if things were not for me – definitely, it’s not for me.” But there’s this one thing that I want to believe in myself… “we were meant for each other”… for the months that we’re still together. I know in myself that I lived in the past for so long…what can I do? I just can’t go on without him…I just can’t let go…

But now, the “truth” dawned over me. It’s over. Past is past. What has done has done! Now it’s just him and it’s just me. “Us” is just a dream that never can be. I have wished that we could walk, hand in hand in the rain but now the growing distance between us is filled with pain. It’s enough.

"now it's time for me to find my happiness again
but the emptiness from missing you
will never ever end..."